I have a confession.....

As we gear up for the next celebration, New Years! I find it only fitting to confess....I was FAT...F.A.T

Shocked? Hardly, I bet! Most girls have gone through it at some stage of their lives and I wasn't about to get through unscathed.

So...It started in about 2006. I wasn't happy (bad relationship, hormones were all over the place from being on various types of pills/contraception, crossroads in my career) and decide the best medication was..FOOD! And the more the better! I ate, and ate and ATE! Cheesecakes, muffins...lots of muffins, ice cream..just gorged. The funny thing was I was still working as a trainer! Hello who would like to train with the fat trainer?...NOBODY. At my biggest I was approximately 85 kilos and my navel measurement  was 110cms (I'm now 69 kilos and navel measurement is 81cms). I always had people/friends/co-workers saying "Oh you carry your weight well, don't worry" or "You're just solid and really strong". It's funny how people who care about you can't just say "YOU ARE FAT!"

I was so uncomfortable with who I was I needed to get out of my rut and get serious. I took a brief break from running my business (I kept things going part time) and decided I was going to try some new options for my career. Whoa! Was that a mistake, possibly even a waste of time but it allowed me to test the theory and see if the grass was greener. IT WAS NOT! Now everyone is different I understand but I love running a business. I love the pressure, the joy, the freedom, the satisfaction and the stress. I think I made to help people (including myself) and motivate them to change. So now my head was in check with the career unfortunately I was still lumping around a Fat ass and a big beer belly. I was displaying all the classic insecurity signs of someone pretending they are fine. Man did I love to go out and drink and also be the loudest one in the whole pub! This boozing and staying out all night was doing absolutely nothing for me, it had to change. I'd tried it and it failed me..I'm done. Enough was enough I cut done the drinking and started training hard, conveniently I was dating a PT and we trained together. He kicked my ass awesomely. It was EXTREMELY HARD but slowly I started seeing changes...The butterfly was emerging. My passion for training hard and frequently was returning. The loud mouth boozer was fizzling out and I was almost back to my awesome self. I found the whole process incredibly hard and taxing however seeing the change in my body pushed me to keep going. I totally understood what all my clients felt like. I had gained an empathy I never had before. I felt like it was the Universe's way of  showing me how to be a better person. It took about 8 months. I had to change the way I ate, why I ate, train hard and also remove the fake synthetic hormones that were being pumped through my body (the contraceptive pill). It was worth every squat, tear and swear word!

There were many days I wanted to just give up and eat cake but I soon realised that wouldn't really help my situation. I was fat and If I kept giving in to my every whim (food wise) I'd be fat forever. Fat forever- that scared the hell out of me. I would cry and carry on like a child at times and not want to have a workout but as I lost more I realised this was just what needed to be done (i.e the training and diet part) because of my previous gorging and bad lifestyle. You do the crime, you gotta do the time! The sacrifices I made were clearly worth it. I had to get to that point to realise that though, it's a process.

Everyday I'm on a path of change, it's the Capricorn in me. It's a constant journey. I'll never settle for OK. I hope sharing my story will inspire those around me to change and also make you realise I'm not a cookie cutter typical, bimbo Personal Trainer that you see at the gym or outdoors. I'm a normal person, with her own struggles trying to live as best I can. I also really like eating and drinking wine! Your ideal body will come but it takes effort, persistence and dedication. Just cut the bullshit and lies (to yourself and others) and get in there an do it...Change your life!

If you are serious about changing your life and I mean serious not just a fly by nighter- dead serious,  then contact me here for information about programs, meal plans & options to rid your body of fat forever! I help people all over the world- so we don't even have to be in the same city!

Porky me on the right March 2006

Xmas 2007

TODAY

Do you have a weight loss story? I'd love to hear it....